You might not realize it at first, but that *stuff stays with you. Then, for whatever reason, you right turn around and do something equally dumb. Like all those years of bible study and good family values didn't matter at all. It's so easy to fall. It feels awful and it's embarrassing. Then, everyone's got an opinion, which they share without even asking you what's really going on. That's when the anger hits. It's like contagious or something. Cosmic dominoes.