Transmutation of Energie II
The conclusion I have made with respect to energetic
interactions is that all energie works in a harmonious fashion to maintain an
energetic stasis. After interactions cease, energie continues to react just
enough to compensate for the loss or gain of energie following an energetic
interaction.
It is as if
energie has a memory. After any given perturbation or deviation in the course
of an energetic body by the attraction or repulsion of a neighboring body,
energie returns to a fixed level or state. Perhaps this is not so strange. The
physical configurations of energie must somehow be formed as a result of a special
configuration of highly active, densely packed matter. Until energetic
transference occurs to the point of equilibrium, the configuration of energie
as well as its trajectory remains constant. It stays this way until a
compensatory energetic interaction occurs, allowing the energetic configuration
to return to its original state. This process appears to continue despite the
many changes of form that occur. To better understand this phenomenon you can
look to a chemical wood fire. If you douse a roaring fire with water, but leave
a few embers remaining, after a while, the wood will start burning again and
return to its former level of activity. Electrochemists refer to this self-heat
as “heat-after-death.”
I have
observed anomalies in how energie reconstitutes itself, but without instruments
to measure these anomalies, I cannot provide any explanation for why they
occur. I merely point them out in the event some hipster scientist of the future thinks it was "cool" that somebody (anybody) "saw" them without the aide
of instruments.
Until sitting down to write this
opus, it did not occur to me
to keep a log of when these anomalies occurred. However, I do recognize the
value of documentation, and will begin making drawings of the shapes
and positions of the energies I observe. In the event I observe an anomaly, I
will try to record it in my drawings. In the meantime, here are some pretty drawings of energie (recognizing that "pretty" is a relative term).
Seeing
energie is not a particularly profound or outstanding experience. It is like
being forced to read the instruction manual for your iPhone instead of just jumping in there and playing around with it; discovering as you
go. In this respect, interactions fail to surprise me. As a child, I began
purposely
not paying attention or
attentively focusing my energie onto neighboring objects so that I could enjoy
the sensation of a seemingly spontaneous event with other individuals. This contributed to my not paying attention to details, a habit of mind that does not always benefit me professionally. My proclivity to instantly recognize patterns has increased over the years to the point that I recognize intentions prior to the release of the energie that accompanies them.
The order
of operations for reading energie is as follows: (1) There is movement; (2) Movement is visible; (3) Patterns are recognized; (4) Compare/contrast analyses take place; (5) New energetic releases, i.e., patterns, are processed via internal changes in one's own energetic
configuration.
I do not
consider the ability to recognize energetic patterns and releases as some sort of preternatural
ability. The reason I say this is that others constantly react to the
same energetic patterns I believe I am "seeing".
Sensing is
higher function than seeing. Once an individual relaxes a bit (colloquial term), they can train themselves, should they so desire, to see energie. I
cannot explain why or what happened to cause me to “see” energie without massive meditation (though I used to run for meditation) or some sort of
guru-like training, but I do believe this "ability" could taught... even under the "auspices" of surreal-like humor.
Observing
the movement of particles, I have noticed that when very little activity is
going on in the room or with a person, the more active particles behave. When
an individual is engaged in higher activity levels, the neighboring particles compress.
Sometimes there is more particle movement in a room than movement
associated with the material objects occupying the space.
While
particles are reactionary,
they do not always seem to react instantaneously.
Imagine, if
you will, a bundle of particles separate but in close proximity, vibrating in
harmonious patterns like the component parts of a symphony.
The particles surrounding the particle that
receives and transmits waves seem to act like buffers. You have to navigate and
adjust your energetic pattern to match the other combinations you
encounter.
I do this both consciously
and subconsciously, but it appears that others do it, too, even if they are not
consciously aware of it.
I see adjustments happening before my eyes with people
as they interact together or with me. I even see changes as their thought waves as they waver from topic to topic (it is actually kind of pretty and I think similar to the sensation others claim when seeing a rainbow; since I am colorblind I am not certain if I see it or feel it in the same way, but I feel the energie other express when they talk about it).
Certain topics emit specific energetic patterns.
While I cannot “read” other peoples’ private thoughts (it's bad enough feeling the result of what they're thinking), I can see the patterns
that emerge. If I know the individual, personally, I can fill in many of the missing gaps, so much so that it has caused people to ask me straight out what was going on. Having been full of school spirit, I can usually CHEER my way out of it by offering an entertaining explanation. I think it is from this compensatory tendency where my inner humorist arose.
Perhaps
energetic interactions are self-evident in the sense that our universe is an
active, vibrant, pulsating combination of bits and pieces that are in constant
movement.
Seeing
energie has allowed me to minimize some (and by some I mean a considerable amount) of the effort I put forth to harmonize my
energetic configuration with my surroundings. Given that I do not work overly
hard to stay in balance, I invest this surplus of energie in exploring new
concepts - or rather, new energetic patterns. Under the auspices of humor, I
enjoy mixing up divergent concepts in order to observe new patterns. This is
where I find
my novelty.
Like others, my
brain reacts positively to novelty.
Novelty is, from what I can tell, just a change in pattern. But like they say, Change is Good! .. and inevitable (except from a vending machine).
I have long
since been a person who is brimming with new ideas. Perhaps it is just me or
perhaps it is a reaction to all the energetic movement and patterns I see; whatever
the reason, I feel as if I have to create new “things” in order to slow down
the internal vibrations. When I give these vibrations form and structure, their release from my mechanism minimizes the tension that arises from holding onto too many particles.
I believe
we all seek harmony, even those people who claim they seek discord. I have
observed people like this, and in reality, what they seem to be doing energetically is merely making
adjustments in their environment to create more harmony in themselves; whereas people with higher vibrations seem to make more energetic adjustments within their own personhood or energetic configuration to match or elevate their external environment.
When
individuals with lower energie levels behave in a manner that most would consider morally “wrong”, energetically speaking, it is
actually their behaving in a manner that harmonizes their energies to the variance they experience between themselves and their environment. The variance comes from the difference in energie levels. This isn't always pretty, as they say, but it is understandable. Essentially, the lower one's energie level, the more work required to harmonize with external energies. Of course, the same could be said for someone with higher vibrations who chooses to interact in environments of lower or scattered energie. This is extremely uncomfortable, but it is akin to charity and sacrifice. When one lowers their energie, it feels like a sacrifice because the energie is being released instead of given (shape or form).
While I appreciate the perspective of those people believe this is akin to "doing good", I believe it is a higher form of appreciation for all life when we create things that help others rather than going around trying to do so with this distinct aim. This isn't to say that coming upon an energie in need doesn't trigger an automatic sharing mechanism, but using this sharing mechanism to relate to others exhausts the person of their energie and contributes to the heaviness of the energetic exchanges being experienced. When your natural energetic configuration is vibrating high, it lightens. It is from here that I prefer to interact with others. The mere experience raises everyone's vibrations smoothing out the frequencies from which we interact and communicate.
Lower energie configurations held in larger vessels are challenging to observe and energetic draining to interact with. So much so, that it can result in a host of physical and mental ailments such as anxiety, sickness, and even death
(from losing too many particles). A potential "fix" might be some
sort of treatment whereby a device is constructed to project higher frequency energie toward these individuals. Whether or not these
particles would remain is unknown. I say this because individuals with lower energie resonating levels actively pull energie
from their environment. From my vantage point, this energie they pull inward only seems to remain temporarily (unless it is highly charged, creating a new exchange, the remnants of which remain).
Essentially, the particles they pull
from their environment do not remain fixed. This is what I presume compels these individuals to behave in a manner that is consistent with their continually pulling energie from their environment (others included therein).
In reality,
varying levels of this type of energie pulling are common; even intellectually, emotionally, physically, or
metaphysically gifted individuals share this characteristic. I, too, have struggled with alignment since I
was very young. I suppose this is where seeing energie is a benefit. It does
not mean that I do not have to do the same work as others to stay in balance or to remain in a state of harmonic resonance with my environment, but it does serve as a
constant barometer against which I seem to be able to make faster adjustments. So when I do go
out of balance, I can quickly adjust.
Old-School Energie Accelerator
For a
period of ten years (2002 to 2012), I felt a strong desire to “help” others.
Rather than doing so from a distance, I jumped right in there. This frontline
approach proved detrimental to my own energetic configuration. By the end of
2005, this behavior ended abruptly with a serious physical accident. Accidents are no
accidents. In reality, they are the violent convergence of opposing energie
strands.
After the
accident, my energie was more susceptible to aberrations, and a downward spiral
ensued until I sat down and took a very close look at all the energie
surrounding me, including that which I was projecting. I also observed that I was expelling a number of divergent
energie patterns. In reality, I have no blueprint upon which to base any of my
thoughts or actions, but I started making adjustments in how I processed and
reacted to the surrounding energie particles in my environment.
Slowly, this
resulted in a physical recovery from what one might call “illness”. Recognizing
that this might be a slow process, I decided to try to bump up my own energetic treatment. Searching for complete patterns, which are found in many sources,
including positive thoughts, words, and actions, I began surrounding myself
with these highly charged energetic particles.
I believe this sped up my ability to
reconstitute the energetic configuration I had before, which I would describe as one that vibrated intensely high. Fortunately for me, this level of vibratory expression does not happen continuously; if it did, it would be difficult to maintain my physical state without constant meditation and vigilance. Since I don't have time to completely and utterly indulge myself in that sort of activity and since I truly enjoy interacting with others from an insatiable intellectual curiosity about the nature of being, I prefer to forego what might energetically feel like perfect harmony for the simple pleasure of "being" in the world. I am happy just being or
existing as Descartes might have said. It is one thing to read another's words, it is an entirely different level of experience to interact with them. Just as I would prefer to converse directly with Descartes, so too do I prefer to interact with others rather than indulge myself in meditative activities, even if those activities lift the energie levels of others who are in their presence. I like to think this is because I genuinely "like" people, but it the thought does cross my mind that I'm just
not that evolved yet. LOL :D
The more
harmonious one’s energetic configuration, the less passionate the individual. This
state appears to be one in which the individual simply wishes to do that which
allows them to remain in harmony.
On a practical level, this includes a variety of thoughts and
actions, including regular exercise (without the burning desire to achieve
physical perfection), a healthy but less heavy diet, harmonious perception of all interactions
with others (even if only in one’s own mind), and creative expression (but not over-indulgence).
I often times laugh with my daughter about so-called “perfect people” saying
that they are the first character to get "bumped off" of a movie or television show. In
this respect, it seems like it might be important to have a little drama or conflict if one wishes
to remain in an active state.
Unfortunately, once you
get this down (or at least feel like you've got a handle on things), the body starts what appears to aesthetics as a downward descent in preparation for physical transformation. The second half of our lives is the one
that prepares us for a significantly divergent energetic configuration.
Like any normal person, I don't like aging, but rather
than trying to control the next state, I am devising ways to experiment with how I will arrive to it.
I thrive on
the outpouring of information available in the world. As more patterns open to
my conscious mind, the sense of wonder and discovery feels very rewarding. I do
not waste time moping around or worrying about challenges I encounter. I teach,
encourage, read, explore, think, draw, write, work, travel, interact, and sit in both wonderment and
observation; it is as if the convergence of events has resulted in my coming
into myself in a way that is far more cognizant than ever. While I have
long since had this “seeing” ability, I did not have at my disposal the ability to recognize as many patterns as I do today; nor did I have the emotional or verbal maturity to express the sensations without artistic embellishment.
The Wounded Angel (1903)
Hugo Simberg (1873 - 1917)
Helsinki, Sweden; Ahlström Collection
